Genderfluid rant about to take place

Why am i constantly stuck between ‘I am the manliest man and I will benchpress u if u use the wrong pronouns 4 me’ to 'I am a magical princess pls brings gifts and brush my hair’

It’s like

I wanna cut my hair off so i can pass better as a guy

But i also want to wear tight dresses and have pigtails

AND WHY IS MY CHEST A THING
IM SO TORN BETWEEN LOVING THEM AND HATING THEM AND HHHHH